I just want to thank all of our family and friends for the many prayers and kind words. You never really know who your true friends are until you are in need. Heck, when you're on top everyone is your friend or kin to ya! But when things are tough, that's when you really know who you can trust and rely on. I have to tell ya I didn't know how many wonderful true friends we had. Thank you!
Now I have to brag on my wife. As most everyone knows, she's pretty dang awesome. I've always said that I used all my luck up on catching her but it was so worth it. She reminds me so much of my Grandma Marge. She's smart, beautiful, dedicated, hardworking and very tough. She'd rather hang out with the guys even if that meant working 12 hours with little to eat in the heat or cold versus sitting with girls talking or shopping. She's usually quiet but when she speaks, you'd better listen. Yes, she's petite but she can and will knock you on your butt if you need it. She has a heart that's as big as Texas although she handles pressure as if she had ice water in her veins. She is so very talented with her camera, writing, knowledge, patience and love for animals. Oh yes, she LOVES her dogs!
I didn't say she was perfect, just pretty dang awesome. I think if it were possible, every acre of our ranch would be covered with dogs. Dogs that she would love and take care of and they would all love her. She's never shy'd away from hard work ever since the day I met her (a LONG time ago). She's had at least one, two or three full time jobs. Smart, wow, I didn't know someone could actually graduate college that fast and work full time! Not to mention have common sense! But with all of her many talents, I still can't figure out how a broke, crippled, risk taking, wild ass bullrider caught her attention. It had to be luck and I'd rather be lucky than good any day.
Now I have always been the tough and fearless one. At least, that's how I acted. Heck, if I were as tough as her, I'd be a multiple time world champion bullrider. I always like to have a plan but would often shoot from the hip or roll the dice. I was so confident in whatever I did. I knew things would work out. Well on January 2, 2014, my life was forever changed. My wife showed such strength and courage as I crumbled. Dying has never scared me but being a burden to other has. How was I going to take care of all the cattle, family, friends and most importantly, my wonderful wife? She stood tall and strong as I fell and cried like a baby. With all of her many irons in the fire, she never weakened. I complained about not sleeping for 3 days but she didn't stop for a week and never complained. She took on more tasks and responsibilities like it was nothing. She sat with me at every doctor visit, test, scan, etc with grace, strength and love. She has been so strong and positive not letting anything get her down not even my lack of patience, anger or crying.
She recently ran a half marathon that meant so much to me. She'd trained hard for the race but the past 60 or so days our world was turned upside down. I tried to get her to back out of the race due to all of the things that were going on in our life but she would have no part of it. I was very concerned that mentally and physically she would break down. I continued to tell her that she didn't have to do this but she refused to quit. On race day, I was more nervous than anytime riding bulls. I remember her taking off and waiting impatiently to see her at mile 5 and she was right on time. She looked really good but as I was waiting at mile 11 very very impatiently, I was truly concerned. Then right on time, she came blazing around the corner. Wow, the joy and pride I felt cannot be explained. She was performing so well that she thought she needed to win another medal and tackle a major stairway challenge. As I hurried back to the finish line, I was glowing with pride. I got there just in time to see her cross the finish, snap a few pictures and give her the hug of a lifetime. To me, she had just set a new world record not for the race but for strength, courage, toughness and love. Ya, she's kinda a big deal around here. She means the world to me and I love her with all my heart. She's my strength, courage and positive outlook and together we will conquer this disease.
Thanks again to everyone for all the thoughts and prayers. It has truly meant the world to my wife and I.
(Wife here, umm, just wanted to say I did NOT have the shock collar on him while he wrote the post. Really, didn't. ;) hehe)
I'll be seeing you RIP Johnny Handsome
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